I always thought that I already love myself until something bad happen to me couple days ago. My friends said that all of the problem in my life actually not a problem because the problem itself comes from myself. Yeah, I always blame myself, depend my happiness to others, afraid to be alone, never see the positive side of me, and sometimes comparing myself to others.
The will to make everyone happy is one of the worst thing that happen in my life. I've tried so hard to change my perspective that we can't make everyone happy or ourself be the one who's left unhappy. But still I can't do it. Sometimes I hate myself for being like this and it's like I did all my best but still has the same ends.