It's been a while and I think I don't have motivation to write something here except for telling my sad story lol. I think I'm just too lazy to write because I have to think quite deeper and sometimes it's kinda tiring. It's already 2020 and I never think time can runs this fast. I can remember it feels like yesterday I wrote about 30 days challenge but turns out it's already 5 years. That day when I stressed out being a full time jobless person and now I can't barely manage my time because I kinda enjoy working overtime.
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I remember how it feels like the first time I realized I fell in love with this person. I never expect everything turns out like this. I was so lonely I really need someone to talk. I feel so depressed and I can't rely myself on me. I need someone to share to talk to. Then he came into my life, I don't know what's his intention but time goes by we continuously fill each other time. But I realized I'm not that important in his life. I keep denial and think that everything is okay, I think I love him. I can literally having mental breakdown every time he abandoned me, even though I know it's because his family, or he's thinking his future or or he met his favorite girl that he dreamed of, I don't know. I pretend I don't know, when actually I know I'm not worth his time.